Disorder 7: Rewind
This song, with lyrics by Jana Stiles, talks about Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and highlights the intense fear of abandonment and the resultant emotional turmoil: the need for external validation, feelings of isolation and misunderstanding when emotions aren't acknowledged.
This struggle leads to self-destructive tendencies and a pervasive sense of hopelessness. Despite this darkness, the lyrics also convey a yearning for healing and self-acceptance, suggesting a glimmer of hope for a more balanced and meaningful life.
Lyrics
Look
I'll tell you once
My biggest fear
Is abandonment
Be Cliche
Black. White, No Gray
Pretend you're okay
Tonight isolate
Whispers
No time to sympathize
Here's the doc, he says:
Great she’s still alive
Worse
I told you I hate who I am
You'd rather watch
TV Programs
Listen
Validate me
Otherwise I
Think you hate me
worry rising
not surprising
Intervention
Hide the sharp objects,
lock all the doors
Entire life flawed
Described vaguely
My experiences are not pleasant
Fear reaction
Cant trust anyone
Self-destructive with little remorse
Careless, hopeless enough to pay the Ultimate cost
Ignore the lies
Breathe and relax
Let yourself enjoy
Life for the first time.
I am not scary
I am toxic
Let’s rewind
Therapy symbols
Only we can understand
Healing with grounding
Fragile like glass beforehand